I don't know if any of these letters today and tonight were meant for me.... and I haven't been on at all day to check anything out and I didn't even plan on coming back here, but you won't talk to me, and I know you won't answer if I call... and you've ignored my dm's, so here I am now... a message I just came from had me think about you and hoped it was, so here it goes.... but I want everything that you want and more, probably... so what do we do? I don't know if this is for me? if so, you're completely ignoring me right now and pretending I don't exist, again... is it because of the story for my "date"? Did you see any of my other stories after that one? I can't sit and wait on someone who doesn't want to be with me or doesn't have feelings for me... even if you do, I wouldn't know because you keep that all to yourself... I was loyal to you all year long and you didn't even want me, then the other night you tell me you don't want anything to do with me in an intimate manner, and you do not care what I do, or with whom, so that tells me everything I thought I needed to know right there?? I can't keep playing these mind games... I've been in since day one, my desire to be near you has only grown with intensity with every passing day this year that we're apart... so, if this is you... and you're ready to talk to me and see what happens, I'm full heartedly, 100% all for you and nobody else, down for the ride for life, and ready to go right fucking now, if you are... or maybe I'm fucking crazy... (kinda feel like this one again lately with all the back and forth and hot and cold it seems to be going around again) Anyway, let's fucking go... I'm in! I don't care where we are or what we're doing, as long as I get to with only you! ilysm!!! I know I can't have the best, unless you're there... because to me you've always been THE BEST for me!!!