I realise now how annoying and persistent I was. I want to say sorry, but I know I'd just get blocked. I'd rather feel his presence than nothing at all.
To Sherry
I'm posting on 9 Sep way too early before your birthday and I'm not talking to you currently but I miss you so much. I miss you everyday and every hour lol I even made an ai character based on you on c.ai (please get mad) I'm currently planning for your birthday as we live far away,I'm keeping everything virtual and I'm way too excited for your birthday. I miss you every hour and I'm waiting to talk to you again. I still love you HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY (I hope you get this on your birthday)
I was asking myself “what do I even want from this anymore” and honestly I don’t know. If you asked me to be your girlfriend I’d say no. I don’t really trust you enough to be friends either not after everything…those things you did just can’t be justified or explained away. I can’t even list the things I like about you because all the things I originally liked about you I’m not even sure are real. You can’t be all those nice things and then repeatedly treat me like that with almost no remorse. You said you beat yourself up for doing the things you do a lot more than I’d think…but those are just words. If it bothered you that much you’d stop and at least try to reverse it. And I think at this point you just see me as a comfortable hookup that you’d like to keep around. This will never go anywhere not only because you don’t want it to, but because I no longer want it to go anywhere either.
Hi, Jp,
This is for you.
Thank you for the love, pain, and lessons you gave me. A year after we contacted again; it was wonderful, sickening and heartbreaking. I thought I could bring back the past we had but I'm saddened that it should be all hidden in the past. Sorry for the words I told you that ripped you heart apart. I guess you are one of the lessons I need to accept, moved on and learned that what we had is something to be cherished of and not to stay upon.
You are a man and I want to see the best of you though I can't be there to witness it but for sure I will look for you from afar.
I wish you nothing but happiness and a kind heart.
Sayonara, Dalin.
I hope everyone knows they are worth it; they are important.
Thank God, I met a lot of kind souls.
Each of them teaches me something valuable.
Once I cry and hurt,
But we are humans.
I might do the same thing to others without my attention.
But without that, I'm not who I am.
Unfortunately, I cut off some of them.
For several reasons,
I really hope they are happy.
Even without me expressing how I'm grateful to meet them.
FMN💐
If you are here…Thanks for the hug on Saturday. It was not representative of the hug I’m capable of. I’m requesting a repeat for comparison . BTW- there’s a poem on approximately page 18 for you. I‘m no poet, but being alone with my thoughts all night inspired me.