Sept 16 2023
last time you and I talked in the school parking lot.
next day and for many days after that I looked for you. you were no where to be seen.
My heart knew you were gone but I was still hopeful.
Sept 16 is around the corner. It'll be a year. I missed you every single day. I prayed everyday for you to return. And each and every day I knew it wasn't possible.
let's see if anything is possible before sept 16.
i cant stop thinking about him, it ended 2 weeks ago so it’s still fresh. I want to reach out to him so bad.
oh, you thought that song was for you and got mad? no. i could say it isn't all about you but i can't lie to you and when it comes to me, yes, it is about you about 99 percent of the time. but sometimes i want to commuicate things to other people and yes, the past was rearing its ugly head.
I’m so torn between accepting all the fault and also resenting you. I know you’ll feel like you’re on a high horse and take my guilt just to rub it in my face. I guess I do miss you
I know that the next time I see you my nervous system is going to go totally haywire. It's how I channel that energy that is the question.
Salamat Daddy, I'm glad for your existence. Feel ko ikaw yung soulmate ko, iba yung nafefeel ko sayo eh, masaya ako and I am comfortable and be myself when I am around you. With you, I felt safe. You felt like home.