i pretended i was drunk when i came out to my friends
i never came out to my friends
we were all on skype, and i laughed and changed the subject
she said, "what's with this dog motif?"
i said, "do you have something against dogs?"
Cindy doesn’t know what gratefulness is as long as you buy her this pay for that and don’t make her do laundry because shes only familiar was jacuzzis living her big 21 year birthday dreams without the twilight obsession because her cell phone cases don’t come with the tempered glass
The longer I go between hearing from you and seeing you, the more time I have to think about how bad of a situation this is. The dopamine wears off, the craving dies, and I see the reality of you. You’re not that great. You’ve invested so little. You’re single, childless, and have a regular 9-5. You aren’t busy. You just aren’t interested. You were stringing me along. You like the attention. There is nothing for me to be hung up on. Wow, you have a great personality and cool talents. The fuck does that do for me? What do you have to offer me? You don’t even have the bare minimum: time. People are out here going to the movies, going to the beach, playing laser tag, riding go karts, going to lunch and dinner, exchanging good morning and good night texts, frequent phone calls, sharing life stories while dangling their feet over a river. Of all the things I could be getting from someone I’m getting none of that from you and am hung up on you. It’s nonsense. I don’t want to talk to you anymore. I don’t want to hear from you anymore. You literally bring nothing to the table so get out of my face and stop wasting my time.
I get sad everytime I think about how much I love you.
It's so profound I might drown and never come back up again.
I'm so tired of feeling bitter.
I never did anything wrong. Years and years spent being scammed for nothing. God, please help end this pain.