Today, I realized that I can be attractive.
Not just pretty, which I'm constantly told I am (and I blush every time) but an attractive character, that sort of grace and the carefree laughter.
In English today we were waiting for class to start and I was joking around with two friends on either side if me, and it took me a few moments of laughter before, wiping my tearing eyes from my giggles, I glanced at the door and noticed my crush, who doesn't have that class with me, leaning in the doorway, probably to ask the teacher a question.
And he was watching me with some level of fascination. He often makes me nervous, you see, and he seemed to like the me that I am when I'm not worried about being impressive.
Maybe if I can loosen up...
-HNH