Three years ago, on this day, my wife passed away from cancer. She was my everything, as cliched as that sounds. I swear that ever since she's been gone the light doesn't shine quite as bright. I woke up early and walked the couple blocks down to the local park. Her favorite bench is still there under the massive oak, and she would have loved knowing that a family of blue jays has taken up residence there. I sat alone on that bench with my eyes closed tight feeling the sunlight beat down for I don't know how long. Just remembering; grasping at the slowly disappearing threads of that ringing laugh of hers. God her laugh, I miss it so much. She'd laugh at my jokes that even I knew were bad, she always said it was because of the way I would deliver them. These days I still don't know how to start smiling, let alone make jokes. I don't know. I just spend most days lost in myself and felt like I had to tell someone today. I miss you Terra.

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  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

I'm so sorry you are without your soulmate.

  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

Thank you for honouring her memory. Love is hard to find these days and its even harder to hear a man profess their love for the women in their lives like that. I am grateful that you had her in your life and she in hers. May she rest in peace and may her soul be forever blessed for having made you such a happy man.

  • The Chem Prince
6 years ago

The days may be cold living without her. The days even though are longer now don't seem that long as the nights may. I know you miss the days of old thinking about her. But remember, she may be gone, but she's never over. Also mourn if you must, but instead of mourning her death, try to celebrate her life. Think of all the light she brought into your would with her laughs and smiles. Celebrate that.

I can't possibly fathom the pain you feel right now. I can only imagine and imagining it kills me. It's my greatest fear to lose loved ones in my life. I'm truly sorry to hear this. May she rest in peace, and when your time is over gracefully, may you reunite with her on that bench in the afterlife. God bless your soul and hers. Thank you for expressing your feelings.

  • a little naive
6 years ago

i can't even begin to understand your pain, but just know that things will get better. you never have to (or likely will) forget her, but the pain will start to fade. focus on all the happiness she brought you and move forward ♥

may she rest in peace ♥

  • Author
6 years ago

Thank you all so much. I didn't honestly really expect anyone to pay much attention to this, but I just felt like I had to say something, somewhere.

  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

This broke my heart, I hope you find peace

  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

I am so sorry for your loss.

  • starrychild
6 years ago

I hope you find the peace and happiness you deserve

  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

Stay strong.

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