I dont know what to do! I love him so deeply, more than myself, more than my family. I have dreamt of my future with him countless times. But it pains me knowing i will never ever be with him. I will never have my first kiss with him. I will never have my first date with him. I will never lose my virginity to him. I will never marry him and have kids. He will never love me. All i do is cry. Help me God. Help stop this suffering and pain within me.