Did you ever just know? Did you ever just get an instant feeling of a person.

A first glanze and you know. This is someone special.

So I did. Last year. Exactly a year ago I came to this place.

I saw him. I saw him looking at me. Or maybe he didn't. Nevertheless I saw him.

I saw him.

Life came in the way and I had to leave the place. I didn't think much more about him. Why would I, he was there and I didn't know him.

It is one year later, I am back at the school, and when I see him again I feel like no time has passed

and that instant feeling of him is the same. But this time even stronger.

I've never spoken to him directly. But I feel it so bad.

There is only one thing that is messing it all up again

I might have to leave

and this time I probably wont see him again.

And I think maybe it would be best for me to leave again,

I want to stay solely to get to know him.

But I know how fucked up that decision would be.

At the same time, leaving and not ever getting to know him

is making me so so so so sad.

I don't know what to do.