And what was all that time for? What were the conversations until 2 am and the calls from 8 to 1? The video calls from 10 to 3? Those calls where I got to see your flushed cheeks and where I got to see you laugh and joke. "Video chats are so exciting it's like she is inviting me to her world full of privacy" -Her, Tyler the Creator; that's how I felt about you. I couldn't wait to call you again and talk to you. We planned to watch a movie together and I was so happy just waiting for that call but; you stopped talking to me. The quality of your texts were shit. They were short responses and weird phrases. They were quick and ready to go so you could talk to somebody else. It made me feel like there was something wrong with me. Was I too clingy? Was I being toxic? Am I annoying? You told me you loved talking to me and that I was never clingy but now I don't believe you. Why did you disappear and stop talking to me over the Summer?

September I found out you liked another girl. Did you know that even after you stopped talking to me thoughts of you still clouded my mind? I waited way too long to confess my feelings to you. I knew there was a point where you liked me too. Hints after hints were dropped. Did we both feel like we were already together? I wanted to wait a little longer to confess to you but now it's too late. I still miss you. ?