gosh, I’m sorry I wasn’t more help. You were confused and I understood what was going on but when you came to ask me for help...

First of all I couldn’t make sense of your notes.

And second of all I immediately flushed and couldn’t offer any words other than ‘uh’ because of proximity-

...and I feel pretty bad about it now. You were upset and struggling and I could have offered more help... should I have? Would you have wanted me to? Ugh I just... can’t get a reading on you. I don’t know what you want but I do know that for some inexplicable reason I just want to be close to you.

I hope this doesn’t put you off asking me for help in the future. Please, please do. I’ll do better next time.