i can recognise that perhaps i don't love you anymore yet although this is something i should be happy about i just am not

maybe all the abuse left something in me that still lingers for you to one day realise that what you did was wrong and no healthy, good person could ever do this to another human being, especially one that loved them, especially one that you said you loved too (even if not romantically)

i don't think you're capable of respect and love towards other people though so when i'm waiting for you to come back and say that you're sorry, all i'm waiting for is for you to manipulate me back into your mind games

looking at things this way makes me realise i'm better off all alone, i just really wish i could sleep well