I know I'm a great person. I think you have good qualities.
I wish we had spent time together but you seemed to have the wrong type of people around you. I couldn't get closer. I genuinely cared though. I can overlook mistakes because people are human and flawed. I can't overlook intentional deception or dangerous manipulation. I'm sure you'll be fine in your group.
Making people laugh isn't truly all you ever wanted to do, but that's for you to figure out.