The reason why I love you is exactly because you'd be a terrible partner... you'd be a bad monogamous partner and an even worse poly one - poly is like 80% communication and you're uniquely terrible at it.
I can love you and also accept we are too fucked up to be in a relationship with each other.
I can feel my body language changing. Being uncomfortable when I imitate you, leaning back when you step closer to me, the nervous thoughts filtering out. This is such a strange feeling…. I never realized how much comfort controls my actions.
My boyfriend and I were hanging out at a bar. he left me to go hang out with a table full of girls and I thought he was being a wingman for his friends. once I realized he wasn’t coming back to sit with me I went up to him and told him “it’s time to go” he replied “no, I’m staying until closing. I’m hanging out with these girls and buying them drinks. You should leave!”
I left and haven’t heard from him since Friday night.
I guess it’s safe to say it’s over?
“You‘re a few pounds away from entering the dating arena.”
I feel like getting a cheeseburger and skipping my workout for today. ?
Every year for the past seven years I would always write birthday letters for him, for a boy who never felt the same way for me. The boy who I considered my first love. For the first time in seven years, I forgot that his birthday was a few days ago.
I had a dream that my whole family was in therapy like, in the same room with 3 therapists. I thought the therapists were all idiots and useless. I was super pissed off at everyone in my family, sometimes I was shouting at them, although sometimes I also was trying to speak but couldn't - like my throat had seized up. I was particularly pissed off with my mum for never paying me enough attention or seeing me/letting me be who I was authentically.
Idk if it's crush related I've had way more of these crazy dreams since I started speaking to him again. My subconscious is working overtime trying to process this shit.
In this day I will officially forget YOU like how you used to show how your feelings towards to me but I didn't have the guts back then because what my heart said that I wouldn't sure enough if I like YOU that's why I didn't and I will not tell that to him because there is someone I'm still waiting for this too long and I promise that to myself to that person that my first ever confession would be him , I know someone said that it's better to confess but for me I'm vey fine to see him happy and laughing as I see him back those days. . I hope your now happy with your girl.
P.s: silently saying through the wind 'I LIKE YOU'.
Trying to change people is the worst approach to relationships. Maybe it sometimes works, but a lot of times resentment grows out of that.
I'm coming to the conclusion that extreme changes would be required for coexistence. And all of what I've exeprienced so far has been horrid, and should be expected behavior.
I'm too old for this.